BEATRICE NG : February 2014

Feeling flustered from all this over thinking. Maybe i'm too paranoid? Just got my JPSAE posting results this morning. Some people may say oh she got a good school + course. So unhappy for what. It's not that i'm uncontent about what i have. I'm pleased i got my first choice. But was it the right choice in the first place. Thoughts of being alone again with no one that can relate to me would happen all over again.

I don't even know what i want to do. What i'm good at. What's my passion or what i'm interested in. Who has it all fucking figured out at 17? APPARENTLY here you have to decide after O levels. It's ridiculous how the system expects a 16/17 year old to know exactly what they want to do in the future. There is no one i can literally turn to right now. Everyone's just like you think so much for what. Cry for what. You don't fucking ask me "what's wrong?" to shut me back down with your critics.

Sorry i'm polluting your mind with vulgarities which isn't very nice. In my defense, i don't have anywhere or anyone else to speak my mind to anymore.

XX

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR GUYS<3

Sending you lots of love and virtual angbaos + oranges!

This is gonna be CNY photo diary(of 3 days so prepare yourself) kind of thing because well there's nothing much to say is there? Usual house visiting from year to year for me.

MUACKS HAHAHA

初一(Day 1)

Starts with the usual bainian-ing with the parents who give the biggest red packets :) *smirk*

Daddy and mummy Ng seemed pretty pleased with my duinian(s) :)

SUCCESS :D

Look at my dad's not so impressed face hahaha

Off to house visiting at daddy's side first!

Cousin Xinyi

The view from my couin's place is A-M-AZ-I-N-G. Too bad my face stole all of it's "amazing" and that's why you can't see it that well HAHAH COUGHS

Adventure time at my cousin's new place which is freaking cupcake NICE. There's this sick pond here which is damn pretty but not too friendly for people in heels

Good location calls for OOTD PHOTO TAKING!

With the oh-so pretty yet timid angel

Cousin Kaili

Hiding in the kitchen from all the people even though this is her "territory"

The freaking adorable bear is actually a pineapple tart. This is really bu she de chi (Can't bear to eat)

Who doesn't love swings. Anyway this is part of a really amazing playground. I swear it's like no other playground i've ever seen. KIDS PARADISE! I'm sorry i dont have a photo of the whole thing